the past few days about my life, family and those who are close to me. well i have come up with Cliff seirosuly needs a new social group and a gil to kick his ass in shape. most definately. Cliff needs that, it will so much better for him in the long run, he's sweet, he's cute, he's funny and he's such a good kid. he deserves it. My family issues goes as follows i found out that a family memeber of mine (who shall remain nameless for the time being) was writing letters that contained sexual content being sold. she was kicked out of her living enviornment and now lives in the dorm. She's been hanging out with a gang of blacks, now when people say gang and sexual content, usually it means bad and you gotta get out of it as soon as possible. I'm not saying the people are bad i'm just saying thats what it usually means. She's been drinkin and smoking cigarrettes like they're going out of style, god only knows if shes smoking anything else. i know shes having sex, shes playing more than one guy. i just know she is for a fact. i'm not saying that having sex is bad, im saying having sex with more than one person is bad and it could wind up in AIDS, esp if she goes to these parties and they get her so fucked up that she blacks out. and im afraid for her. And this is my family member that ive always been close to. not its like i harldy know her. i just dont believe that she could be so stupid. and now the only reason why she wants to do anything is to get away from the situation that shes in cus she's made it so hectic that now its all a fucked up mess. I honestly dont want to get involved. we used to be so tight what happened to us? i know we live in two totally different cities but we are still family. she has family where she is but they could care less what happens to her. we actually care and for her to hurt us like this, not to mention herself, its like she has no respect for her family or for herself. And that hurts more than anything. i dont want her to end up whoring herself or selling drugs just to get money to survive, that shit only winds up with AIDS or HIV or any other number of STD's. i dont want that to happen to her, im worried and honestly theres nothing that i can do or say to her to make her think differently. she wont listen to anybody. she has to learn for herself and honestly by the time she learns this lesson it might be too late to change things. but hopefully it wont be.
This goes out two people that i care for: Cliff and My family member that remains nameless for now.
Waterfalls Artist: TLC
Verse 1: A lonely mother gazing out of her window Staring at a son that she just can't touch If at any time he's in a jam She'll be by his side But he doesn't realize he hurts her so much But all the praying just ain't helping At all 'cause he can't seem to keep His self out of trouble So he goes out and he makes his money The best way he knows how Another body laying cold in the gutter Listen to me
Chorus: Don't go chasing waterfalls Please stick to the rivers and lakes that You're used to I know that you're gonna have it your way Or nothing at all But I think you're moving too fast
Verse 2: Little precious has a natural obsession For temptation but he just can't see She gives him loving that his body can't handle But all he can say is baby it's good to me One day he goes and takes a glimpse In the mirror But he doesn't recognize his own face His health is fading and he doesn't know why 3 letters took him to his final resting place Y'all don't hear me
Chorus
Rap: I seen a rainbow yesterday But too many storms have come and gone Leavin' a trace of not one God-given ray Is it because my life is ten shades of gray? I pray all ten fade away Seldom praise Him for the sunny days And like His promise is true Only my faith can undo The many chances I blew To bring my life to anew Clear blue and unconditional skies Have dried the tears from my eyes No more lonely cries My only bleedin' hope Is for the folk who can't cope Wit such an endurin' pain That it keeps 'em in the pourin' rain Who's to blame For tootin' caine in your own vein What a shame You shoot and aim for someone else's brain You claim the insane And name this day in time For fallin' prey to crime I say the system got you victim to your own mind Dreams are hopeless aspirations In hopes of comin' true Believe in yourself The rest is up to me and you
Chorus to end
posted by: cornell (reply)
post date: 09.13.04 (1:33 pm)
yea cliff will be alright, my mom is talkin to him, as well as the other one ur talkin about i hope things turn out good for her...but remember this baby I LOVE U LOTS muah :) - love cornell
posted by: AJ (reply)
post date: 09.13.04 (3:48 pm)
wow! all i gotta say is wow! ohh, i dont know with this one. i've been involved in so many things but a gang was never one of them. well with the gang comes drugs and sex, which you know. im sorry, i really am. theres not much you can really do for her, in the situation shes in. you just have to be a friend and be there for her. when she realizes that she has a problem with whatever shes involved in, she'll go for help. and like you said hopefully it wont be too late. i know you're worried about her and that you love her, but things happens for a reason, maybe her reason is rebllious. whatever the reason she will be alright. from what you've told me about how she was, she seems to have a good head on her shoulders, right now she just seems to be getting even with all the heartache and pain that shes had to deal with over the years. everything will be alright. i promise and if im wrong i give you total permission to kill me if you please. ok? Peace little lady
