This has been troubling me since I could remember. Why is that my mind keeps trailing back to things that have happened to me in the past? All the time, no matter how good, bad, exciting, fullfilling, desperate etc. that time in my life was. My mind always seems to go back to anything that I could remember. Last night right before I was going to bed, I was laying in my bed after talking to Cornell and my mind trailed back to this kid, whom I've never dated, but who liked me. It was like 'What the fuck?' My mind trailed back and re-thought the whole situation over again and wondered what woulda happened if things were done differently. I dont understand this. I dont care if things would've turned out differently, ALL things happen for a reason. Why does my mind do this for? Its not like I even care about things anymore that my mind goes back to. Now dont get me wrong, its not that I dont care about anything I do. I just dont care about certain things that my mind trails back. It doesnt matter if its 2 months, 4 months, 6 months, 8 months, 10 months, 2 years, 4 years or even 10 years ago. Whatever happens that I'm able to remember my mind will trail back to it and it will be like 'Oh well maybe if I did this my life woulda been....' or 'Well maybe if this happened things woulda turned out like this...' Its like I dont fucking care. I LOVE, absolutly LOVE my life as it is now. Yea things could be a little different, like I could be rich and be on my own right now. But that will happen, so as of right now I love my life so I really dont understand why mind keeps doing this. ITS SOO ANNOYING! My wonderful boyfriend even keeps asking me "Why do you keep bringing ____(insert time here) up for?" and I'm just like 'I dont know!' Cuz I really dont know for! I have no idea what the hell is up with my mind for! Its soo annoying as stated before. Ugh I cant stand my mind sometimes. I'm done. Leave love. I'm out!

~♥→ I LOVE CORNELL!!!←♥~

Yankee fans are now embarrassed at the terrible, horrible, unexceptable loss of the team. 4 games in a row! How the fuck does that happen? I dont even want to know. They are a disgrace to baseball as of right now.   Thats why there is a strike-through that whole small paragraph for that reason.