I have work today as usual. Nothing there changed at all. My jacket that I took this morning smells like my dog. Eww thats really gross, I cant wait to get out of here and spray it with my fragrence. I mean if I smell it I know other people smell it and that gives me a complex. Eww it smells like dirty, smelly dog. Which is what he was until yesterday when I gave him a bath. Speaking on the topic of Tyler, he wont go outside with my dad no more to take his shits and pisses. I dont know why. Maybe he's changing his morning person because now that my dad has been working Tyler is left home alone most of the day and its usually only me and my mom home? Could that be? I dont know what has been up with that dog lately. I dont know. Guess I will find out sooner or later right? Cornell called me last night as usual and I asked him a question and by his first response I think I scared him a little bit with it, but he seemed to be okay with it afterwards. I mean he should know me and my weird, strange, random questions that come outta my mouth you know? I dont know maybe he doesnt expect them now. Or maybe he forgot? Or whatever the case. Eww this jacket really smells maybe I should just take it off and not wear it you know? I dont know, I am so spraying it with my purfume. All I was smelling last night was Cornell, Joop and Gio mixed together in my bedroom. I still have no idea where the hell that smell is coming from and why I havent smelled it in there before. Its not like he was recently in my bedroom, he could've been. arrr<--- sounds like Cornell. lol. I swear I really think Cornell is in here somewhere all I hear is some guy farting and him saying arrrr. lol. Thats Cornell for sure. Well at least I dont have to smell the farts, AJ does since he's the closer one over there, and Kim is in the middle of us lol. Poor Andrew. lol. oh well. Well I'm about to be out now, and I'm guessing that these comuters dont like AIM too much cuz it keeps shutting it down, or maybe it shuts it down because I'm not using it? I dont know. Everything in my life is soo confusing.
Now onto the more important things that have been going on in my life, THE DRAMA is you would so call it that.

Life is just confusing and depressing. I'm reaching a state of semi-depression now. No not because my boyfriend isnt here, but yes he is part of it. (No Honey dont feel that bad, its a bunch of other things to) The other part of it is my cousin which I dont want to talk about although I really should talk about her. Get everything thats bothering out in the open. Also I'm failing math, which isnt good. Ugh. I dont know. I cant seem to grasp it on the test. I do the homework and Im fine in class but when I get the test its like everything just goes blank and I have no idea what the hell I'm doing. My life is just a big depressant. Ugh. I cant take this no more. Why can't this class be easy. With all that I have to deal with, trying to teach myself this course plus my life as it is now, my boyfriend not here to help teach me this course, and now my cousin(s) its all more than I can handle. At least some good of it this is that I dont have a trouble oriented party freak of a boyfriend to worry about. He's the only person (thing) that I cant actually say I dont worry about 24/7. But now that things are just soo fucked up right now, and my life is depressing I'm worrying over him more than usual. I hardly ever worry about him. I just feel so depressed like all I want to do is go home and cry and just sleep. Have my world dark and gloomy thats the way I feel today. It hurts so bad knowing that no one can possibly make me feel better and I have to try to deal with it on my own. The past couple days I'm just putting on a happy face, or a happy voice just so no one knows or no one asks about it cuz I dont want to talk about it. Even Cornell doesnt know anything is bothering, or at least until yesterday anyway. He just doesnt know how bad it really is. Well I think I'm gonna go to class now oh the joy of more misery in my life.
And Cornell you better read yesterday entry to!

~♥→I LOVE CORNELL!!!←♥~    Look baby Jets colors, even though they lost the other game lol.